A powerful memoir from the granddaughter of Vita Sackville-West and Harold Nicolson, chronicling holidays at Sissinghurst, reckless youth, and the tragic loss of her 19-year-old daughter Rosa

A brutal, frank, and bittersweet memoir of poverty amid privilege - Peter Stothard, author, "Alexandria"Beautiful and honest - Victoria Hislop, Summer Read, "Women Home"Vivid and sometimes painfully honest... She has taken the base and battered metal of her life and turned it into gold - "Mail on Sunday"A collection of fragile fragments, handled with care - "Daily Telegraph"[A] heartbreaking memoir - Books of 2015, "Sunday Express"Full of vigorous humour and sharp social comment - Charlotte Moore, Books of the Year, "New Statesman"Nicolson is a startlingly skilful writer and can wring bleak comedy from the unlikeliest of material... This level of honesty lifts the book into a league of its own: the enduring feeling, however, is of the author's own dogged inner vitality - Claire Harman, "Evening Standard"Poignant... While there are harrowing aspects to Vanessa's story they are leavened by an atmospheric account of a life that was privileged in some ways, underprivileged in others but [...] always fascinating - Charlotte Heathcote, "Daily Express"You finish this beautifully written, highly affecting memoir feeling that Vanessa Nicolson hasn't always been good, but wishing above all else that her mother could open her handbag now and, finally, give her the gift of love - Marcus Field, "Independent"A searing and uncomfortable book... beautifully written - Vanessa Berridge, "Sunday Express"In recording her own roles as both daughter and mother, Nicolson has penned a double helix to motherhood. It accounts for the many shades of experience that shouldn't be, but so frequently are, endured in families, irrelevant of privilege - Rebecca Swirsky, "Observer" "

VANESSA NICOLSON was brought up in London and Florence and has worked as an art historian and journalist. Her publications include The Sculpture of Maurice Lambert (Lund Humphries / Ashgate, 2002), commissioned by the Henry Moore Foundation. She is married to the writer Andrew Davidson and lives in Sissinghurst.